urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtydiana454 Take a wild guess why dirtydiana454 2005-11-26T23:13:20Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtydiana454:1641 2005-11-26T23:13:20Z 2005-11-26T23:13:20Z pictures of you- the Cure I feel like overwhelmed when it comes to the holidays...not to mention I wish there were two of me when it comes to this season but that would be scary....My friends know that. Not that they don't love me but I, alone, am a handful already ........I thought "Big" and I were over but I guess he has other plans for me even though I wish I knew what they were. He isn't done with me yet and he knows he is my greatest weakness right now. I have spent more time with him over this fabulous Thanksgiving weekend we just had than in the last two months. I'm o.k. with that though because with my schedule I have no time for anyone else but my children. I really talked to him this time and hopefully some of it sank in that thick head of his.....we'll see. (Crush number three) Let's hope not. I just need to be patient with everything in life...I'm used to life being rushed...everything. I will write more later on tonite...TaTa for now urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtydiana454:1470 2005-11-14T07:00:46Z 2005-11-14T07:00:46Z wild horses Just got back from a "Viewing" of my boss's best friend. She died of cancer last week. She was only 26. She left a 6 yr. old behind. Just when you think you are having a bad moment in your life please remember that you're still here and alive. No matter how bad it gets, we are so lucky to have gotten this far in life.We can be so selfish and not even realize it. That little girl kept stroking her mom's hair in the casket and to be honest with you I don't think she realized her mother will not be there tomorrow. I can say this though you do learn to appreciate everyone around you when someone you know dies...... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtydiana454:1217 2005-10-20T04:47:34Z 2005-10-20T04:47:34Z my kinda'lover-billy squire Well, I have yet to find the time to write my daily life on this site but I am trying. I saw Mr.Big Today and Umm...You could kinda say we were very brave and stupid at the same time. But dam was it a RUSH!!!! Cochina !! I hate to say it but I really dig him and hate to dig him if that makes any sense. I never had a healthy relationship in all my Thirty something years....so why start now? Oh my God I wrote Thirty Something ....Was'nt that a show about ten f***in' Years ago? When I grow up I want to have a very healthy normal RELATIONSHIP. Is there such a thing out there? I have'nt given up all hope, either that or I am in complete denial. And I think it's DENIAL. SHH....don't tell me. I really adore Mr.Big and his wit but his situation is Icky and January is coming around so we'll see. I am working all kinds of wacky hours and I have no time for myself for the next two weeks but I will try to write. Smooches to all and have a good nite.........DirtyDiana....Nooo! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtydiana454:1009 2005-10-17T00:08:20Z 2005-10-17T00:08:20Z Papa Roach--Scars <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut<br />My weakness is that I care too much<br />My scars remind me that the past is real<br />I tear my heart open just to feel<br /><br />Drunk and I'm feeling down<br />And I just wanna be alone<br />I'm pissed cause you came around<br />Why don't you just go home<br />Cause you channel all your pain<br />And I can't help to fix myself<br />Your making me insane<br />All I can say is<br /><br />I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut<br />My weakness is that I care too much<br />My scars remind me that the past is real<br />I tear my heart open just to feel<br /><br />I tried to help you once<br />A kiss will only vise<br />I saw you going down<br />But you never realized<br />That your drowning in the water<br />So I offered you my hand<br />Compassions in my nature<br />Tonight is our last dance<br /><br />I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut<br />My weakness is that I care too much<br />My scars remind me that the past is real<br />I tear my heart open just to feel<br /><br />I'm drunk and I'm feeling down<br />And I just wanna be alone<br />You shouldn't ever came around<br />Why don't you just go home?<br />Cause your drowning in the water<br />And I tried to grab your hand<br />And I left my heart open<br />But you didn't understand<br />But you didn't understand<br />You fix yourself<br /><br />I can't help you fix yourself<br />But at least I can say I tried<br />I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life<br />I can't help you fix yourself<br />But at least I can say I tried<br />I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life<br /><br />I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut<br />My weakness is that I care too much<br />My scars remind me that the past is real<br />I tear my heart open just to feel<br /><br />chorus:<br />I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut<br />My weakness is that I care too much<br />My scars remind me that the past is real<br />I tear my heart open just to feel<br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtydiana454:755 2005-10-14T06:44:09Z 2005-10-14T06:44:09Z Where the hell do I start......Hmmm I have not stopped since about 7:30 this morning and now it's about 11:30 p.m. So talk about exhausted ....My girlie girl did this all for me! You will get more from me manana . I am literally wiped out....oh yea I forgot .Thank You Easter Bunny .....I do not deserve you....and I don't deserve me...wait that came out wrong...I hate Mr. Horsey....I take that back, I hate his being but I like his Horse....Cochina....Nooo...Did I really type all that without falling asleep.....MeeMees......ahhh urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:dirtydiana454:359 2005-10-13T23:59:00Z 2005-10-13T23:59:00Z Pussycat Dolls--Don't cha It's me!